i really love talking to people who don’t know what they want to do with their lives.
the other night i was up late doing work for education (story of my life this week) and started talking to a girl who lives on my hall. i don’t know her very well and this was kind of the first intense conversation we had ever really had.
she’s a first-year from colorado and doesn’t know what she wants to do with her life. she doesn’t think she made the right decision in coming to unc. she doesn’t think the trip across the country was worth it.
it was fascinating to talk to her. like i said, i don’t know her really well, so i don’t know anything about her religious beliefs or how she was raised or anything like that that could possibly affect how she feels about her life and choices. she mentioned something about how she felt as though she lost so much at the cost of those she loved.
she was so focused on what she had lost.
i asked her to consider what she will gain, what she has already gained! there’s positive to this experience of moving thousands of miles away and starting over in a totally new place!
she thanked me for being older and wiser than she is.
older and wiser — who am i? how old am i again? 21?! let me be the first to tell you that i am not a person with all the answers and i don’t always have the right things to say, even if i want to always have answers or say the right things. sometimes it’s really hard to give someone advice on something or talk something through with another person, especially if you don’t have the experience to do so.
fortunately, that’s where God comes in, which is so cool. so one of my favorite stories in the Bible is about moses in exodus. God calls him to speak on behalf of israel to pharaoh so that the hebrew people can be freed.
basically, moses freaks out and tells God that he can’t do it.
(yeah. moses. tells. God. that he can’t do something that God has called him to do. crazy, right?!)
anyway, God gets upset with moses and God’s “anger burned against him” —
who gave man his mouth? who makes him deaf or mute? who gives him sight of makes him blind? is it not I, the LORD? now go; i will help you speak and will teach you what to say.
that is one of my favorite passages in scripture.
i think it’s just beyond amazing how God can intervene for us and help us do things and teach us what we need to do, even when we think we can’t do it. i definitely think God gave me a gift and i know He has helped me out with things to say to people; i try to make sure His compassion is a driving force behind every conversation i have with people.
i like talking to people with questions because i like helping them find answers to their questions. i like people getting closure and finding resolution in things.
i was talking to another friend tonight who i was studying with and he asked me if i had considered going into counseling.
my mom had mentioned counseling to me a year or so ago, and the more i think about it, the more i could see myself doing that. don’t get me wrong, i want to teach and plan to teach once i graduate (still waiting on that student teacher placement — i might be going slightly crazy at this point), but i definitely am leaving that door open for all and any possibilities that God has for me.
“in my life, be lifted high; in my world, be lifted high; in my love, be lifted high” –hillsong